Aye peeps... its really been a while...

Hmm, pretty much cool like this week, met a bro from the youth group! **I'm getting older... dammit...** Well, he's none other than Jian Chong, serving in the Y-Hope decor ministry. I really feel honoured by him that he can really serve the youth ministry. Few other brothers I've met from other churches - Andy, Luke, Samuel, Ernest and the list goes on.

Aparently I borrowed someone's guitar (shepherd...) and me and Andy held the first internal in-camp CG. Though I felt pretty uncomfortable at first, its like after a while, you'll get used to it. You blend in with the atmosphere and we started to worship the Lord like ever before.

Though different doctorines, we're still worshipping the same God! That's like the coolest stuff ever...

So after the worship we had some sharing session, but just along the way, there were some hiccups and it became a battle of doctorines, particularly from the believers of 2 mega churches (wouldn't want to mention the church and names as it'd tarnish their rept.) and well, it became clear on why some of us bask in God's grace while we continue to sin ( aka cheapening God's grace) or try to do our best to reach what the bible tells us to do. Interestingly, they even took out like bible and evern a pastor's publication to rebuke one another!

It felt really intimidating as its threatened my faith, but well, shit happens all the time. Do I really cheapen grace? Well, come to think of it, most of the time I did. But look, its times like this I think, that God really put our boats to the test, mine is kinda "paper boat"... but well, it managed to sail through though sometimes it'll just... sink when the paper can't take it.

Anyways, I don't feel proud spending so much money renting cars. In fact, I asked God if this has became a habit to like send people home and while I spend so much money on it. If this was what God has assumed the task for me - Its like - you're asking me to be a servant for them, but in a more tangible way. I find it both a curse and an acts of service.

Why curse? Coz its like, pocketing my own money without grudges, and I've really got to bear with some people who ride home with me who creates hell and sometimes, I feel disturbed by them when they create havoc at the front/backseat.

Why acts of service?Or blessing - Simply don't know why, I think God wants me to do this until I get the meaning... so wait till I get enlightment, then I'll key in, LO!

Yups, its really a blessed week for me last week, though I hate the fact that I booked out LATE yesterday! Dammit! Fortunately our sergeant was kind enough to let us go after our lesson and ha, this coming week full of test and exercises! Its like - I can't fail any test..., or else SAT..., I've got to stay back for RT!!! NOOOOO!!! That won't happen to me. Please pray for me!!!!

Haha, anyways, so here it is - one-zero - out!!!

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